Her graduation was one of the most heart breaking period of my fandom ever since the world begun [lol], I really cried on her graduation and totally cannot work well on my school stuff because I'm totally depressed. I'm thinking what will happen to her, what will happen to my AtsuMina, what if she gets boyfriend right away? I'm really worried as hell. But I need to trust her and believe in her that she can do it.
Witnessing the separation of my Atsumina at Shin Domoto Kyoudai, was again another unbearable event for my fandom. I'm quite disappointed at few things I've discovered about them, about Atsumina going to Takaharu and Atsuyuu. [augh]
I already got my heart broken many times now just because I've decided to take this path, this fandom over Maeda Atsuko. So did I regret anything? No I did not, I'm still holding on to this girl for I know we are heading straight in reaching her dream!
But then again, fate really is playing with us..
This scandal came about [Shunkan Bunshun releases scandal pics of Maeda Atsuko]
To be honest I was really shocked seeing these pics. I don't know how to react. I was like about to go crazy now.. I can't believe it. My attention went straight to the guy carrying Acchan like just some animal he picked up in the streets. Like heck? You're a man [and worst you're kamen rider, lol] and you can't carry a drunk woman properly? Even if you say he's skinny and all, are you saying Maeda is heavy as a fat lady? No, shit!
People are saying that "hey, Takeru Sato was so gentleman I actually want them to date together. I'm not against this"... I won't restrict you for saying such coz I'm also [somehow] thankful if it's true that he insisted to bring her home with that drunk stature of Acchan. [not thankful as he exposed Acchan's precious butt!! lol] But comments from people wanting them to date each other? they are fitted for each other? They looked good on each other? I say STFU!
He can't even hold nor carry her properly and you guys are saying you guys are okay with them being together? He can't even handle that situation nor to hide themselves and not trolling around the streets and paparazzis taking pics.. like hell? Maybe some people are right, Shunkan Bunshun's pics were just captured in an ugly and exaggerating scandalous views.. But still.. I find it not so gentleman for a guy to carry a woman like that.
And here, I don't really mind if she dates any guy she wanted.. I'll let her loose up and get the guy she wanted.. as she really wanted to experience love life after 21 years.. I don't mind at all... But hopefully she gets the right man that won't make her cry nor disappointed and jealous. *cough* Takaboy *cough*
The other thing that's bothering me for this scandal is that, she was drunk and crying. For some reason there is a thing behind all those. Problems maybe? Regretting things [graduation maybe?]? Lonely being alone? [she looked lonely being alone-stated by takamina in SDK]
Or maybe she felt overwhelming feelings as she became emotionally unstable at everything that's happening to her all at once. She can't move on yet coz it's too hard for her, or an unbearable burden to her more than of being the ace. She's new, she has just become a soloist just a few days.. and there's nothing wrong to feel these things which is I'm speculating.
People were also talking about, "she's not akb anymore, she's already an adult...she can loose it up, date anyone, party harder.. no rules are to be obeyed anymore." Yes you guys are right, she can do whatever she wanted and no-one actually prohibits her to do that.. but if you'll look it.. is it a proper lady's doing to get drunk and be carried by a man on the streets? Is it a proper woman? Is it a woman you want Atsuko to be? A drunk woman going wild and can be seen, captured by paparazzi like a scandalous one?
I know maybe the newspaper just wanted to get some hits, and totally looking for a great subject that the world would talk about.. and they found Atsuko.. Nope it isn't the newspaper/paparazzi's who is at fault on this... Don't you think if Acchan became more careful.. would there be a "so called" SCANDAL like this to be brought up?? NO!
So if we are going to look at it, there is actually nothing wrong if other fans became so emotional and blame nor scold Acchan in this kind of situation.. I would say they also have a point in doing so.. There is actually nothing wrong with being mad, and get so affected with this.. for fucking hell, we love Maeda Atsuko.. soo much. We're concerned with her future.. and we can't just calm down and tell the world that she can act like any wild woman.. Guys, I know you all wanted her to have a normal life like any other lady.. but she's different guys.. she's MAEDA ATSUKO.. she's famous, she has prestigious career to be take cared of.. she is different.. but yes she can still party and act normal and experience everything she wanted.. but in A CAREFUL WAY... no one prohibits her to do these things... we're just wishing that she'll be responsible enough to take care of herself.. and don't lose her mind. The graduation is still fresh, and this came up. We all know there still is a connection between her and AKB48.. even if she had graduated already.. everyone knows she's AKB.. because she was the no. 1 after all when she left. With this selfishness of her... Akip, Takamina and members would really get themselves sad and worried about this. The reputation of Maeda Atsuko the ex-AKB ace is on the line.. I wonder what was the reaction of Acchan seeing herself like that on the newspaper.. and I wonder as well how Takamina comforted nor scolded her in this kind of situation..
Maeda Atsuko might be having a breakdown [or not?].. she's a woman who can't express her true feelings through words.. I wonder how she will handle things.. now ON HER OWN.. But I'm sure her friends esp. on AKB won't leave her all behind this.. they are all friends after all...
But then again, my other point for this blog entry is.. to challenge everyone how much they love and cared about this MAEDA ATSUKO. If you're a real supporter or fan of her.. would you leave her at times of difficulties like this?? Would you say you'll burn out your stuff related to her just because she made a once in a lifetime mistake? Would you not forgive her after the years she made you laugh, smile, and get seduced? [lol] Come on guys.. she needs us, we maybe disappointed about this issue.. but let's just hold on a bit longer and just have faith in her... Let's give her another chance.
EDIT: (added Sept. 12)Colored Pics: