Okay seriously this blog entry that I will write about is actually painful for me, call me dramatic and emotional but it's really true. There are quite a lot of things that had happened within this year.. within my fandom and to Maeda Atsuko whom I'm watching over these past months. I'm quite addicted to her, I admit and I'm not the only one. She graduated in AKB48, although it was hard for me to accept.. I still tried to and decided to just support her till the end because I want her to reach her dreams too. If leaving AKB would give her that huge opportunity then I have no right to sob in the corner and tell myself I'm gonna quit this fandom.
Her graduation was one of the most heart breaking period of my fandom ever since the world begun [lol], I really cried on her graduation and totally cannot work well on my school stuff because I'm totally depressed. I'm thinking what will happen to her, what will happen to my AtsuMina, what if she gets boyfriend right away? I'm really worried as hell. But I need to trust her and believe in her that she can do it.
Witnessing the separation of my Atsumina at Shin Domoto Kyoudai, was again another unbearable event for my fandom. I'm quite disappointed at few things I've discovered about them, about Atsumina going to Takaharu and Atsuyuu. [augh]
I already got my heart broken many times now just because I've decided to take this path, this fandom over Maeda Atsuko. So did I regret anything? No I did not, I'm still holding on to this girl for I know we are heading straight in reaching her dream!
But then again, fate really is playing with us..
This scandal came about [
Shunkan Bunshun releases scandal pics of Maeda Atsuko]